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Hmmm, school was pretty okay today. Spent the day teacher watching. From what i noticed, Mr Tan: Not a very encouraging person. Kept looking at his watch and was shaking his head most of the time when we were presenting out artefacts. Ms Yeo: Gets quite annoyed by the noises and when she can't get the lesson going. Didn't used to be like that, guess she had enough. Kinda went overboard sometimes. Mrs Chan: Tries her best in teaching, even when no one seems to be listening to her. She teaches those interested, to those not, she keeps quiet. Has our best interests at heart. Lunched opposite with Celine, Jennifer and Zalifa. Homed, slept.

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The rain came at the wrong time. What a spoiler. I was at my corridor, wearing my shoes, and then i heard thunder, and before i knew it, it began to pour. I wanna run!

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Swimming and running yesterday. Supposed to sort out my thoughts during those activities but ended up more of tiring myself out so i won't have any energy to think. Perhaps later, when i go running again, am lazy to travel to the pool. And on Friday i just realised that i actually have pretty much alot of demerit points. Already eligible for conselling and intervention by form teacher, as said in the handbook. Another 4 points means meeting of parents and referral to DM already. And its only march now. Didn't knew my conduct was that bad. Tag Replies: Lyn: Hahaha, of course interesting la, once in a lifetime experience. Jessica: Yeah, i find it amusing. Its not big deal for you what, expected de. C SQUARE! : Welcome and thanks. Sometimes, there are some things that happen and you can't help it but feel down.

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Morning assembly was amusing today. Mr Tan was as usual crapping about stuffs, listened awhile and decided i was not too interested. So held a conversation with the person sitting in front of me, which is in this case, Jessica. And then we talked and talked and talked. At times, i saw Mr Siva looking in our direction, but we didn't think much of it anyway, ignored him. And when Mr Tan finally finished his super duper long speech, MR SIVA SUDDENLY CALLED WE TWO TO STAND UP AND GO TO THE BOX BESIDE OUR CLASS IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL OF TEACHERS AND STUDENTS! I was smiling and grinning on my way to that box. pretty amusing isn't is? everyone was looking at us, hahaha. And the two of us sang the anthem and took the pledge in that box. After flag raising, Mr Siva nagged at us, and after he finish, Mr Tan's turn. Mr Tan. Supposed to have 2 demerits, but ohwell, the merit and demerit file wasn't with Mr Liu! At recess everyone asked me about it, lazy to explain . what they said to you guys, was pretty long a nagging session. On the bus Mrs Ong talked about that, practically yelled at me with alot of sarcasm included. Blah blah, knew i was gonna get it anyway. Today was an interesting day!

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I thought i've solved my problems, prepared to start all all over this term. Little did i know more were coming my way. In a dillema once again. I've trusted you, i believed you were true. I thought you'd do the same, but i was wrong. You are another person with two face, but you were the person i thought i could rely the most on. You said something, but acted in a totally different way, i saw things with my own eyes. My trust in you is gone once again, now you got to earn it back all over again. But i doubt you will, you don't care anymore. I don't wish to give up, i know it will hurt. But is your heart really gone? Please prove me wrong, i'll still be waiting. Every little thing i tell you is true, i want to know about yours.

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School is reopening soon. And i've still got so much things to do! Especially the art piece and that damned zuo wen. English video tomorrow, eat up my precious time again. Where did the fun in holidays go? For the first time, i haven't had fun for holidays. What a break this is, much more busier than normal school days. Netball for Monday's PE again. No more fun. How did life get this boring?!

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I have alot of work still undone. - art piece -Dnt -geog -chinese zuo wen -science project -english ama -english portfolio See the amount of undone work? and its already thursday already. How time flies.

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I couldn't believe you'd actually tell me that on msn. I was taken by shock, and my first response to that was " LOL LA". I wasn't really thinking at that time, until yesterday night before i slept. You know it's impossible between us, you know it. Sorry if i was being too direct and had hurt your feelings. I just didn't want you to bear anymore hope and get even more hurt by it. I made you give up, but i didn't give you up as a friend. I was wondering last night if we should end as friends, but i decided not to. For now, concentrate on your studies, you'll find someone else someday.

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Training's getting on my nerves. 3 days a week, no more time for anything else. Just have the urge to pon trainings, its quite a waste of time actually. And it drains me of my energy for everything else. I'm tired of my CCA, i can't wait for the day CCA actually stands down. At least i can finally focus a little on my studies. I really need to buck up. Tomorrow, training in the morning, art straight after that. Then some time for lunch before i start on science project. Guess there won't be time after all for anything else. Great. I'm hating the holidays and my life now. Hais, i've been thinking about you all yesterday night, after that message. I couldn't believe you'd actually said that. Or is it me?

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I'm feeling so disoriented right now. I just spent today gaming away on my PSP, what a waste. The holidays are here so fast, and i have alot of stuffs to do. Haven't found a day when we can meet up to do our projects. I don't know when i'd be starting on my homework either. Bet i will be stoning on the steps outside my house for the rest of the week. Just by stoning i can get peace within me, at least i can forget everything for some time. Still coming to terms with stuffs that happened. Thinking how i should put things across. Perhaps i should just shut up and keep everything inside me. No point letting them out. The pain will subside someday.

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Amksian family today was great. Rollerblading together with Joel, Xenia and Shi an. Joel fell many mant times, i was good enough to wait for him, while the others bladed far far away. I fell once, not serious. Xenia fell, cannot get up. Didn't get any tanner, my skin isn't functioning anymore. March holidays, many stuffs to reflect on, many things to be done. Perhaps, even more busy than normal school days. Dnt, art, chinese zuo wen, english portfolio, trainings, science project. Maybe, its just me. Right, it's all my fault, mine and mine alone. No one to blame, no one to put the fault on. Perhaps you are right, i've thought through things, i now have the heck care attitude. Loss of passion, loss of respect, loss of self control, loss of focus, all in all, i've lost myself. Now, i got to find it back. You are right, just one failure and i can't get back onto my feet. I need to find the strength in my mind back. Put the past behind, and look forward to a better day. Back to square one once more. Wish me luck.

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Slight fever today. Didn't really managed to sleep yesterday, cos i was cold one moment and warm the other. I almost died, plus my calf cramped. How to go for family day in this state? Grah, this just spoils my mood. Nothing more to talk about, too sick to type. All the best for the class dance tomorrow. :D

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Fell sick, no wonder i couldn't breathe at yishun sports all yesterday. Just a little more extra work and stress, i got sick. Can see how weak my body is now. Body's weak, mind's weak, what a failure. Got back progress report after school today, still wondering how to show it to my parents. I don't wish to listen to their nags anymore, I'm tired of all those. I'd rather you guys hit me and get it over with. Spare me the torture of listening to you guys. I'm already disappointed with myself, you two don't have to add it in. Let me off, for once. I know i never fail to disappoint you guys, but, I've already tried, don't make me give up. Stayed back after school to finish up the banner. Painted quite alot and got myself quite dirty. And at some point, i really got quite pissed off. There was only me doing the painting at one time, all of the painting crew went to slack. Never mind about that. You guys asked me what you could paint, i found some details for you to complete, so that i can move on, and what did you guys do? Left the work unfinished. WIthout finishing, you guys wanted to paint something bigger, i didn't stop you guys. But you guys painted halfway without finishing and left for home. What is this? You wanted to do something, but left it done halfway, and i had to complete it for you guys. If you wanted to do something, complete it yourself! Don't make me clear up the mess after you. Sorry if i got pissed and some people at some time, but i couldn't stand it anymore. Then, i began to become very tired, after hours of continuous work. Whenever i stood up, i felt faint. Everything around me would black out. Continued for some while before we had to pack up and leave school. Now, my head is spinning, i can't think properly. And flu too, great. Enough for now, can't take it anymore. Bye. Hope everything turns out fine.

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Watch matches today, till i wanted to fall asleep, despite the noise. And i guess same goes with Celine and Monessha too. Boring. Going to be very busy this whole week. Trainings and plenty of deadlines to meet. Demerit again for undone art piece. Whatever, i'm not affected by demerits, they serve no purpose. I guess i need to learn to prioritise and manage my time. Studies has been going down the drain. In addition, i need to save myself from heartbreaks. I need a break from all these, but how when so much stuffs are piling up? I can't catch up in my maths anymore, easy sums are exeptionally hard for me to handle. Sometimes i wish i can just forget all about my homework and meeting deadlines, it won't matter much in the near future anyway. Enough of complaining, not gonna help much anyway. So yeah, ciaos.

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I've read many blogs online, and many people are complaining about how disorganised the TRYathlon is. No paramedics when people are injured, ushers don't know what to do, road was too narrow, finishing prize was only a tin of milo, etc etc. Well, first time this event was organised, this kinda things should be expected and forgiven. It was for the sake of fun and experience, not competition, this kinda stuffs should be forgotten. Biked early in the morning at 7am to 11am. Was a long ride, and i almost got knocked down by a car, was biking and smsing at the same time. Lesson learnt. I'm tired, not sure if there's homework to be done, don't bother to check. But i know i completed the fractured fairy tale script. The end, I'm drained.

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Wanted to go watch the Singapore Biathlon today, but couldn't make it cos of the TRYathlon. Singapore Biathlon was held at east coast, which is a long long way from Sentosa. It was really crowded at on Tanjong beach, with so many kids and parents. And finishing prize of the Tryathlon was a tin of milo. -.- Starts from the oldest catergory to the youngest. Briefing for 15 minutes before the start of it. Organisation was quite disorganised, think it was because of the rain earlier in the morning. Everyone was queuing in all different directions. Had to wait quite long before we got our bikes too, close to half an hour. Saw alot of crashes during the bike part, think it was a little too congested as the road was a little narrow. Some of the older guys in our catergory was pretty irritating, screaming to keep left when there's no left to keep anymore, resulting in quite a number of accidents. This explains the sportsmanship, and this wasn't a competition in the first place! But overall, it was still fun, not to mention the few pounds of fats i shed. :D

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What's happening to me? To drop all the way from sky high is really too much for me to handle. I don't know what to do. During the science paper itself, i wanted to leave the paper blank and give up, but i didn't. I studied, i was prepared to face the test. I completed the paper, but i knew from that moment onwards, I'm probably not going to achieve my expectations, but i was left with no regrets. I did my best. When i got back my results today, i expected it, but i couldn't accept it. I wasn't mentally prepared yet to face another setback. Whatever that happened in class today, I couldn't help it. I've tried my best, but i failed again. I am not feeling regretful, i'm just disappointed with myself. Downright disappointment. I really have to think through and reflect on this. Bye people.

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Thanks to all for the gifts. Namely, Celine, Momo, Love, Ms Yeo, Xenia, Lyn, Joel. C, Zalifa, Jessica?, Siya, Candice. Thanks alot! Tell me if i have miss out anyone! And after school today, i got smudged with ketchup, on pads, on my new PE t-shirt. But was fine with it, since its all for the sake of the celebration. The surprise was great, thanks team! And sorry celine for the ketchup on your uniform too. Rehearsed awhile, and watched some videos with the comp too. Then hubbed, Xenia and Lyn bought me stuffed toys, a bear and a dog, that will stay wil me forever! Don't worry xenia, i'll sleep with it, and lyn, yours too! Trip to botanical gardens tomorrow, hope it won't rain. I need some fun after all those tests.