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I've been having nightmares for the past 3 nights, consecutively. I dream of people closest to me leaving, my friends, classmates, teachers, parents. I would wake up in the middle of the nights tearing, thinking what i've just dreamt about. Even when i was sleeping during class, i had a nightmare, although i'm not fully asleep. I'm afraid of sleeping now, i'd waste time till 4am into the morning before i'd get some rest before going to school. I don't even sleep now. And i'm mentally drained. I'm scared, of the nightmares, 3 nights, has been too much. Tag replies: Lyn: i'm still waiting for that one day. :) C SQUARE!: Yeah, its hard to be happy when you're actually hurting inside. But i'll try. No worries! :) Sme1: yeap. puo yen: this time one confirm lose alot of marks, maybe get a fail mark, you won't know.

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希望越高失望越大. Sure you people had heard of this before, but nevertheless, continue to bear hope. Giving up on hope, is equivalent to closing up to everything, even chances given. With hope, things do happen. For when the sky is darkest, the star will be at its brightest. The more bleak things are, the more meaningful success will turn out to be. It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today, and the reality of tomorrow. Hearts might have been broken, tears may have dropped, still, don't give up on hope, things might take a better turn. Hope, is what makes me live on. For you guys out there, don't be demoralised by failures, keep the hope. One day, something will happen.

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Science, Maths and history test today. Was super pissed off with the class next door, and the voice of Ms Karim. They were cheering so loudly, and Ms Karim was speaking so loudly through her mike with that accent, it destroyed my chain of thoughts, my high hopes, my confidence to do well for the science test. I waited, and prayed for it to stop, but it didn't. I tried to ignore it, but it was just too loud. At that point, i knew i was going to be distracted again, I tried to focus, and remember all the facts, but no, i failed to. I've not only lost 3 marks, I've lost to myself. I studied, i tried my best, no regrets, no more tears. I'm done and over with it. Period. "Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, this time more wisely." - Anonymous Tag replies: Die Silently: Hahaha, don't worry la, they won't dare do anything to me de. Hehheh, i won't la :D C SQUARE!: Hehheh, anything to say la, since you always win in whatever quarrels there is. :( Unknown 09: Thanks for the encouragement :) (:XENIA, C SQUARE!, sme 1, Lyn: Hahaha, thanks for helping me scold that person. :D Unknown 09: I learnt today. :) Alright, will do so. Lyn: you too.

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I just gave up on studying. It just drives me nuts, i took out my books and went into my room, i haven't even finished one page and i got all flustered up. Perhaps tomorrow or before training. School was fine today. Didn't get to play badminton during PE, sorry lyn! every lesson was kinda slack, since its monday. Got back english paper, copied corrections. SSRP for chinese. Met Ms Tay after school for the project, then went home. The rain made it a nice weather to sleep. And now i'm feeling so awake. Am i stressed up because there's too much work, or have i been too free?

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Haven't be posting recently, was busy with life and thoughts. Right, so many tests are coming up, and i left my books under the table, how great. Even if i have the books with me now, i doubt i will even touch it. Studying, i've lost interest. I screwed up tests, and there's more to come. I've practically lose the interest in everything, even P.E now. I need to find my motivation back. And damn, the ulcer in my mouth sure hurts. Tag replies: Qingyi: Yeah, i seriously need to learn how. Lyn: 我也希望如此 (:XENIA: i just hope to meet my goals. I don't wish for something as to top the class for geog, i'm realistic. Siya: who ask you never come, obigood. Haha. Anonymous: Yeap, i guess you're right. I tried my best, i've no regrets. :D C SQUARE!: Hehheh, thanks! hahaha, weirdo la you. Lyn: thanks. Jessica: Yeah la, very happy. I understand la, not as dumb as you think. Die Silently: You're in a better school than me, competition there will be stronger naturally. Just work harder. :) L0llies: LOL. Sme1: :) C SQUARE!: I will. Thanks alot. :D (:XENIA: hello. i don't know how to reply you siol. Yiqing: thanks for the tag :D Unkn0wn 09: Thanks for being there. I need to understand others i guess, and i'll wait. :) Speed: LOL, how can you not. (:XENIA: yeah lo, i ban you then you know, hahaha. Lyn: yeah lo, really is very noisy, somemore cannot off. Joel: the results are out, i did studied for nothing. Die silently; hahaha, don't need be so angry, my friends all like to bully me de. :( David Santos: ? L0llies: happy but not mad like you. Joel: hehheh, thanks.

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Got back geog paper, expected results, but i didn't expect a score as low as a 10/20. I know i was getting distracted during the paper itself, i tried not to think about those stuffs at the wrong time and remember my facts, but i just can't. My mind drifted away from me, i lost my senses. I tried getting back to the paper, but i just can't, i can't wake up from my daze. Streaming year and i'm getting so distracted already, what's more going into the class i want, i'm getting very far from it. I wasn't upset, perhaps plain disappointed, i was so disappointed that i almost broke down in tears, but i tried to cover it up with my smiles and saying that i'm fine. All those studying till 3 in the morning reaped nothing. Candice, don't be too upset too, i know how you feel. i just need to get over with myself and my emotions, too much things happened. Perhaps i shall stop hanging on to things and give it up. Dragging it makes it hurt even more, things will not get better.

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I gave up on commonwealth essay, i tried, but didn't manage to complete, out of frustration deleted the whole file. No use trying to do another one again anyway. There's still alot of undone work, learning festival ICT, Science project, maths homework and what else? I seriously can't be bothered much about them, meeting deadlines and all. So what if i completed them all on time now? It’s just another piece of assignment that matters greatly to all of us now but in the near future I’m sure we’ll all forget about it. And ohya, Qingyi requested this: i don't know what to say to you, but then thanks for all your support! Tag replies: C Square!: Hahaha, your friends will give you all the love that you need for now. Okay, looking forward to my birthday now then, you will get yours too! :D Speed: Happy belated valentines to you. Its over and i'm still not surprised. Qingyi: LOL, someday i go over your house help you catch la. Don't worry, your sandcastle will stand someday, don't give up! C Square!: i posted about it, but not much though... Qingyi: Thanks for the support. I too hope i can make the right decisions. Joel: luckily nothing unlucky happened. Lyn: you too! (:XENIA: hahaha, hope you find your other half soon too! Joel: same goes to you! C Square!: Don't mention it, what are friends for? I will stand by you always, happy or sad, rain or shine. I will lend you my ear if you need one. Hope you get over it soon and cheer up. :) Qingyi; you too :D l0llies: hehheh, thanks Joel: hahaha, today don't have leh. Yile: The games are going on well, and i'm doing fine. Hope you are too! Miss ya and the team too. :)

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Nothing much for school today, normal stuffs. Only after school celebrated January babies' birthday, the cake was nice. Julia Gabriel after that, game was fun, but the acting part was kinda dead. I was grouped with 2 very quiet people, making me the most hyper one in the group, trying to make them speak. Grah, why do i always end up with this kinda people man. After that, went to amk hub with Celine, Momo, Jennifer, Yunrou, Jiaxuan and Zirui. Walked everywhere before entering sumo house, made a din there. Then back to hub again. Celine was looking out for pink stuffs in every shop, and there was laughters everywhere. Hahaha, elaborations on stuffs perhaps in those who went blogs, go there see, i'm lazy to type out everything. :D Going off to sleep! training tomorrow still. Happy Valentines' Day to all out there!

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I'm tired and worn out. Enough said. Tag replies: (:XENIA: It doesn't seems to be dead now, and a longggg time had passed. lyn: hello! C Square!: Yeah lo, and i think at that time i was without my shoe. Think i ran like a bai ka that's why. Hahaha, next time buy you somemore. :D Sme1: yeah. Qingyi: :D. you stay strong too. Jessica: it doesn't really applies to everyone, perhaps you are different. (:XENIA: I'm not really that interested in that game anymore lo. Yiqing: hahaha, like that my readers' angmor also can improve mah. Thanks for the tag :D C Square: yeah, its quite true. Guys... Jillian: wow, rare vistor. Yeap. lyn: like that you come read more english will improve mah. HAHAHA, later they angry. SiYa: hello! first time see you here. haha, yeah lo. Joel: yeap, told you so. :D

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Just to share this with you guys: If a guy wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a guy and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that is not meant to be. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the guy was not treating you as you deserve, then no you can’t “be friends.” A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in the relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a man treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. You cannot change a guy’s behavior. Change comes from within.Don’t EVER make him feel like he is more important than you are… Do not make him a quasi-God. He is a guy, nothing more, nothing less. Never let a guy define who you are. Never borrow someone else’s guy If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you. A guy will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All guys are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all of the bending…. compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships… there is nothing cute about baggage… deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to complete you… a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals… look for someone complimentary… not supplementary. Dating is fun…. even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes… when a man always knows where you are, and you’re always readily avaliable to him- he takes it for granted. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

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Love is patient Love is kind It does not envy it does not boast it is not proud it is not rude it is not self-seeking it is not easily angered it keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth It always protects always trusts always hopes always perseveres Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4 Tag replies: joel: Hope to see you back in school very soon. Yeah, i know my blog time wrong, but i can't do anything to it. Hahaha, maths always is like that de la, all is just pass. lyn: okay, i'm not angry la. okay, will cheer up. :) Qingyi: you didn't what, you drew macdonalds! C Square!: Yeah, if not i won't be loitoring outside there right? You've poor tastebuds. Will do so, you too alright? Speed: i know you didn't post LOL, my reply to your tag was LOL. get it? (:XENIA: your phone should be honoured that i actually wanted to play with it. I'll beat your score one day. Zirui: tagged already! :D lyn: yoyoyo! unknown 09: Yeap, it was fun. But some parts are not. its hard to tell you in here. Hahaha, alright. :D l0llies: thanks.

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Maths and literature today. Not much confidence though, i'm stuck with some of the questions when many said the paper was easy. Ohwell, maths like that. I'm gonna go back to join the remedial lessons after all. KFC after school. I had a sudden urge for it, since i saw it in the papers this morning. And since there was time before training, i ask Xenia if she wanna go. And ended up with like most all the girls going, LOL. Me, xenia and candice walked there, the others took a bus. We were tired of waiting, and when we reached the traffic lights, they were on the bus waving to us. Back to school with yiqing and xenia after that. Changed and all, passed my half drank root beer to celine, who thought it was sarsi. Wanted to wait for her to end, but ended up getting chased down by ms lee. After training, went opposite and headed to playground. talked and played with xenia's phone till she needed to go home. Accompanied celine and momo to the bus stop, and then went home after that. Boring post today, at least it's not that emo anymore. :D tag replies: C Square!: Yeap, early tonight i guess. No more redbull and coffee for this week! (:XENIA: thanks, although its over, thanks for the sms today. :D lyn: yeah lo, i want pass de leh. You jiayou too. Joel: thanks, you get well soon. yeah, my time screwed up, the tagboard or blog time? Speed: LOL. Jessica: i see i see...Yeah, enriching as in what? the show today outside KFC?

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History test wasn't that good, i had problems even with the MCQ questions. Guess i'm gonna flunk it after all. Science was a little much better, i think the paper's simple, not that i've studied enough. Time spent last night till 3am was worth it i guess. I want to know the reasons behind your actions. I can't hide from this forever.

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I've learnt to accept things as they are. Some things are just not possible to correct, perhaps, i hadn't tried hard enough. I just got to take things in my stride, living each day as it goes by. I won't think too much about the future, i won't look back at the past. Sometimes, letting go just isn't an option anymore.